It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view

When there was me and you
I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

study, i loathe. i'll nv be an assiduous student. i know in order to be, i must constantly endeavor. but, its hard!

been eating so much lately, felt like a fat woman. nevermind, i'm fat and happy! like what fadz always say.

have not been sleeping much too. i looked like a zombie! i mean i always look like one but it's terrible! but regan says its sexy! ha-ha.

was posting this video. however i wasn't able to. they said i violated their terms and conditions. haha. whatever. went to regina(regan's butch name)'s house to study netinfra. thought i wouldn't be able to study with darren's conspicuous booming voice, regan's fatuous action, chee wee's sense of humour, shui li's stillness and sab's melodious singing. on the contrary, i studied 2 chapters! it's a remarkable achievement for me! lala. but time is still running out! wish me luck!

didn't realise that i'm actually a very fortunate girl! i have all these wonderful friends!!

sabrina, darn, she's everything.
fadzy, imbecilic girl, love her.
angela, allows me to confide anything in her.
pohsuan, that girl never fails to make me laugh.
brandon, that jackass, keeps me busy with arguments.
sergeant, mr nice guy, always download songs for me.
kenji, jeez, another nice guy.
kelly, sweet little thing, so optimistic.
lynette, always helps me in my work.
harbourfront, silly goose, let's just say he's silly.
stanley, that spastic boy, with favorable views. (i know you're reading it)
yong chee, the guy with big ambition, he's learning to make the best bubble tea. (lala)

i just love them! *flying kisses

actually was trying to go on a diet. and hope to hear a wow from everyone after the holiday. however, 'what ifs' came asking myself.

-what if i look funny.
-what if others prefer the old me.
-what if i look sulk-en.
-what if i'm slim but my tummy's still humongous. (yikes, like african kid)
-what if......
-what if......

life is full of contridiction. one will never be please. will i learn to be contented with what i have now? i don't know. but i'm willing to try. yes yes.

Packing up the dreams
God planted In the fertile soil of you
Can't believe the hopes he's granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But well keep you close as always
It won't even seem you've gonecause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong
And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say nevercause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the father's hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.
With the faith and love gods given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you'll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we'll keep you close as always
It won't even seem youve gonecause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong


i'm not a christian but the lyric's meaningful.

there's so many things that i'm fucking pissed with. And so, please pardon me for my grammar errors and harsh comments. I just need to vent things out.

(1) men turn nasty when they can't get you.
-I don't really agree, until now. This fucking 'a' friend of mine. i just shouldn't name him.
(2) men are weird creatures.
-they say women are hard to please. well, i think men are non-understandable idiots.
(3) men are male chauvinist pig.
-girls! say BYE to your boyfriend if he is!
(4) men just aren't sensitive enough.
-hints given. but no balls have been caught. lousy.

well..of course not all men are like that..

I always think that life's like a story book. The more wisdom you stuff yourself with, the thicker your book will be. People buy your book. BUT, whether one would keep it and not sell it depends on how interesting and attractive you are. Searching for that kinda guy who keeps you with him is like asking edwina to remember her stuff. Well, i really yearn to fall in love, but i'm afraid of break-ups and learning that i'm no longer in the person's heart. Knowing that, i would prefer not to be in his heart. Silly huh. Couldn't help it i guess.

A sudden urge to have a blog..and i don't know why. I used to think that blogs' kinda silly. However, i realised that it can actually help me remember my stuff! Well..guess that blog can actually be FUN!